The raging first grader kicked the room divider and screamed relentlessly as he worked himself into another frenzy. The teacher sat back and listened to “I hate you and I hope this place burns down,” as she gathered papers and guided him to the timeout booth. She thought of her student’s home life. Abuse, neglect, and pain radiated from his eyes while her filing cabinent cradled the documentation in his chart. Fifteen minutes of hellish behavior caused all the children in the room to feel like a rubber band cocked around an unsteady thumb. What slight move would actually cause the undoing of the next one? Singing calmed the boy. As the teacher hummed softly, he tried to get his breath and find a focus. She sang gently and he began to join her. As he gasped for air, and wiped his tears they finished the chorus together. Walking back to his desk with his hand in hers, he looked up and found his peace in a line of the song, “there is power in the blood, Teacher. There is power in the blood.”
Power. The writing girls and I were talking about power and owning up to whom/what had power over each of us. I was able to quickly jot a list of 10 people and things that held a knife to my throat at times. I quickly noticed, I didn’t even particularly like all of the people on my list. Some I never even see anymore, but they remain powerful negative critics to which my heart stands at attention. Others I don’t even know, but I’m certain they wouldn’t approve. At first, I huffed because I felt like they were stealing from me. I then recognized I am freely handing power to them. This came as a surprise as I reviewed each name individually. Some have spoken words that keep me from writing freely, speaking, loving wholeheartedly, forgiving, risking, and generally just enjoying my life. Who do I want to hold that power in my life? Easy one. The King of the Universe. He created me, knows my heart cry and is preparing my future home. He is trustworthy to keep me and all that I love. He is FOR me. He died FOR me. He set the example by giving up His divine privileges So, like my heart doctor questioned, “I have no doubt you hear from the Holy Spirit, so why do you then take a vote?” Why do I hand any power to people when I can only trust God? Why do I seek approval from certain people? Why do I remain wounded over the rejection from particular friends or family? Why do I question whether the path God has me on really is good? Why do some of my things hold power over me….my piles of junque? my papers? the dress I wore to Nick’s funeral? the now worn sweatshirt I bought at Kif’s navy graduation? my mom’s little jewelry jar? Why do I give my children such power in that I will do almost anything to keep them pleased with me?
I don’t want to ever be separated from their love.
The power in relationships can be my god.
My life has revealed the truth that I physically can be separated from the love and presence of my child, my family and friends, my comfortable surroundings and what I WANT.
As much as I desire not to be separated from the love of who I love……I think this is just a symptom of being concerned that SOMETHING OR SOMEONE can separate, cloud or diminish the constant unconditional love from my Father. Is it chance I received my daily verse this am that reads…..
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present or the future, nor any powers ( WOW), neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38 yum
Heather made an anagram to help put the power back where it belongs.
P Pray…find out who/what has the power in my life.
O Own it….be real to the fact that I am handing power to those who should not have it.
W Wrestle it out..It may be a habit or security to allow someone else to control me or my emotions. Is it God’s best for me? He invites me to work it all out with fear and trembling. And then I acquiesce….yield without struggle. More on acquiescing…check out this site from a new friend http://www.jennrene.com
E Explore the truth in the Bible. Phil 2:6-10 shows Christ’s power in humility:
Though He was God, he did not demand and cling to his rights as God. He made himself nothing and took the humble position of a slave and appeared in human form. And in human form he obediently humbled himself even further by dying a criminal’s death on a cross. Because of this, God raised him up to the heights of heaven and gave him a name that is above every other name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee will bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
R Remove the power from the place it does not belong. God promises to supply all that I need. He is trustworthy. This requires humility, grace and surrender….all of which I lack. But, I can find peace where the 7 yr old did, ”there is power in the blood, Teacher, there is power in the blood.”